My Blog, My life..

So long time didnt write a blog in english sentences already because my english very poor and bad in grammar. However, i try to write down english version today. hehe.
No any special thing i can share here. Hmm. Maybe i will share my feeling or what i think in my life now..

What is my life now? I 25 years old already, am i happy in my life? I just happy with my girlfriend, family and my friends only. Except above members, i dont think feel happy in my life now. It maybe i have many commiment, burden, stress in working, financial problem etc. I understand every people also faced the same problem as me but i just want to share my voice in here only.

My financial problem was happen since left IBM this company. I was resigned since last year of November 2008. After resigned from this company, my working life, financial was dropped. Because i have a lot of commiment need to pay and finally i use my saving account to pay all the payment as loan, credit card and etcs.. Additional, i have a rest two weeks after resigned from IBM. It was spend much money when no income in your pocket, because during resting in two weeks, i need to eating, dating or another.. For honestly, i have regret to decide left company. If not top management to give unfair decision and too much fighting going on, office politics are the main agenda for some.. I will not left IBM APCC team. Why i need regret? After thinking, i not be willing part of IBM matter is my laptop.. I very miss my laptop although is belong to IBM. But i very like this laptop because make me convenience to work. Second, i very miss my team, order loading team. I dont mind how late i need to stay per day because i very enjoy this job and team. Although someone of team is always take incorporate teamwork for me but i also can be handle with alone..

Well, a days was going so fast. I already left IBM this company 10 months. I still feel like want to back this company although i hate some manager there. I just hope can join another department if got any opportunity for me. The reason i dont want back to my previous department is because i hated one manager when i was under her manage before. She is a 'wick' for me and many people extremely dislike her becasue the way of to manage the team from her is like shit.. However, dont want talk this wick anymore..

After left IBM, i was joined one company as Quantum Consultancy Services. My position in there is Inside Sales Executive and my job scope is handling inbound and outbound call to customer, to find new customer and persuae existing customer to buy product, hit monthly target and etc. This company is business partner with HP, which mean we well help HP sell HP products. This is for me when i accept this jon initially because that time i willing to learn a sales job and hope can get more commission. Yes, is fine because i have goals there. But unfortunately, i was resigned since April. There have few reason for leaving this company for me.

1. When i first day joined this company, i really didnt get any training couse and my senior buddies me. My manager just direct give me a existing customer list and new customer list without any guide or teaching. She asked me to call out to customer side to find a sales for company. Additional, i need to find sales in Singapore market. Crazy..

2. Manager like talking loundly and laughing. She didnt control her voice when talk to someone. She is emotion person which mean easy angry. More, if she faced any stress from boss or customer, she will find someone to scold or angry. She always scold me my grammar is very bad. This is okay for me because every she scold me or whatelse, i just ignore her. I believe many staff in QCS is very hate this kind of manager. Didnt respect person and just scold like bullet train.

3. I have working this company about 5 months and i get the sales around 400k SGD. But i still not receive one cent commission from this company. Even those 400K SGD will depending the outside sales team whether won this quotation or not, i also didnt receive any cent. What she (manager) promise me before is a blank... I have chat with my ex colleague last few days, he was doing same positioni as me before but he is handle Malaysia Market. Last day he told me, he still no receive one cent also. I am deeply disappointed when heard this news from him.

For those reason above of left this company, i didnt lie. That's true. Finally i have decided to left this company and working in EDS company at cyberjaya on 4th May 2009. In EDS, already is 3 months plus in this working place....I feel no sp stress when starting working here. But unfortunately, EDS will merge with HP on 1 November 2009. So we will under HP employee after end of october. Why i describe unfortunately? Because after HP merge with EDS, EDS will disappear in this world and we need to follow rules from HP. We receive a bad news from my manager, that is we will get a deduction of our payment salary to 8%. Which mean each EDS employee need to cut 8% off in salary. I very sad and worries after heard this 8% deduction for our salary..

I dont understand why my luck keep fall down since left IBM and never get any best offer or chance for me?? Will my life will be smoothly in future? I just feel lucky have a good girlfriend because she always support in behind me....